Today was great. This morning was chilly and although it kept me from texting (which isn’t a huge deal but idk I kept on thinking about it all morning for some reason), it was just nice being out in the fresh air. I started off my morning feeling really good. I sat down and just thought about how happy I’ve been recently. Life is just great and your attitude really does impact how you see it. Idk if that makes sense but whatever. There are always little things that people (who don’t seem to like me very much for whatever reason) say throughout the day that would have really bothered me a couple months ago that just aren’t important anymore. It’s also great having certain things to look forward to every morning like doing my makeup (which has been so relaxing for me bc I take my time every morning and it makes me feel so much more confident and what am I doing using parenthesis so much), having coffee before going to school, seeing specific people, psychology class (actually really starting to love ms. meachum she’s just someone that has so many stories and i’d love to get to know her more but thats probably weird because she’s my teacher but yeah), and then just coming back home and spending a couple of hours alone before my parents get here. UGH MAN IDK I HAVE SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT BUT I CAN NEVER FIND WAYS TO PUT IT ALL INTO WORDS BUT THE POINT HERE IS- I’m happy. I’m genuienly happy and I have never felt the way I do today in all my life and I want to remember this feeling when I am in my 40’s and appreciate it. Looking back 2 years ago I truly did not believe I would be alive at this age but I am and I am so glad. It’s just so crazy that surrounding yourself with happy people and thinking positively about every situation can make life so much easier. I just wish I would have realized it sooner. I’m excited to find out what this year brings for me and I plan on making it one of the best of my life.
I’ve decided to finally be happy.
Recently, I’ve surrounded myself with positive people and it has impacted me so much more than I expected. I realized I am in control of my own life and happiness. This is an incredible discovery for me mainly because I used to feel so trapped and powerless. I’m trying my best to stop complaining and focus on goals that keep me motivated to wake up the next morning. I’ve been alive for 15 years and I’ve taken that for granted for way too long. The fact that a planet is able to sustain life for billions of people is such a crazy thing and I’m so glad I’m part of it.